Solitude..

Count read 282. And he saw a panel in right having the list of names with a green in front of some of them signifying their status. There were some videos. Some comments below them. And some likes also. There were many pictures, with smiling faces, of happy people. Some of them from the list of those 282. And some more comments below. And some more likes as well. He saw some updates, thoughts being shared about many things and some jokes that had been posted. Followed by some more comments and likes. And everyone seemed to be gelled so well. And he suddenly felt alone, very alone. Irrespective of the fact that there're supposedly 282 friends in his list. He felt miserable, wretched and completely lost; irrespective of the fact that his cell phone was full of the numbers to be dialled and talk to. He felt himself in some sort of abyss, some bottomless pit; wherein he could hear the voices of the people he knew; happy voices, but they didn't seem to hear him, they didn't seem to feel his presence or least the presence of his uneasiness. "Is it same with everyone around?", he thought. And somehow the whole '282' seemed to be mocking to him. He felt alone in the crowd of the familiar people who strangely looked unknown now. He felt like a ‘Nobody’ and non-existent. He felt as if he had been living in a cocoon giving a false sense of comfort which is not around when you actually seek it when you actually feel its need. All of this compounded together, instead of giving comfort only seemed to amplify the discomfort even more. The uneasiness of being invisible in the bright light of the day with a sinking feeling in the heart wherein your pains can’t be even understood, let alone be shared. And then the cursor hovered over to ‘delete account’..

The doors are closed, windows are shut and curtains are drawn. It’s dark now and no one can see him even if they wish to. Strange enough, the darkness feels soothing and pacifying, uneasiness feels personal and the realization of the fact of being in state of oblivion gives a comforting sense just the way a soft serenade does..