Reloading Life..

Last few days were difficult.. Felt miserable for most of the time.. Called up few friends to talk about 'something'/ 'anything'.. didn't work.. Tried to watch TV, that too didn't work.. Switched on to music and that proved to be even more fatal!.. Tried to read, but my mind was wandering, wondering about all the things and nothing in particular at the same time..

It is then, I thought I will give a try to this.. A friend had suggested one blog which has some really good positive stuff.. "Wo positive likhti hain" (She writes positive stuff), I had been told sternly (yes sternly) when I got to know about that blog.. Well, when you are feeling really low, then all this talk of how one should always be positive doesn't really help.. Rather, at times it annoys, because then one who is in the rot wonders, "Who doesn't want to be positive?" We start reasoning within our mind unnecessarily which exacerbates the whole thing.. It happens to me as well and at times I feel that in one way or another, I am espousing the negativity.. Do I really want to do that? Of course no.. Then why does this happens? Answer is, because we try to argue and reason with ourselves over the things which we should not be doing; because they are either the things of past with no strings attached using which we can pull them back and fix them up or they are the things which are really beyond our control.. Most difficult part about this issue is; it is slightly tricky to recognize the whole trap.. I mean, most of the times we don't realize we are getting engulfed in the stream of negative thoughts.. It is like walking on a road which offers you two paths diverging in completely different directions, yet they look so much alike initially when we start treading it, just running parallel to each other for a long time and then they start diverging and before you realize you are at a place where you didn't expected yourself to be.. The best option to avoid getting in such a scenario is to stop.. Stop and do something else..

I read that blog, not everything, but some of the articles, trying to guess from the names, the extent of negativity/ positivity in the contents.. And I was in for a surprise.. Surprise because the pessimist part of me was in for a big disappointment and the optimist part of me was certainly getting its veins flooded with the fluids of positivity.. To say the least, it made me see the things in a different perspective..

I don't say that I will never feel low again, there are very good chances that I will.. Because our own complicated neurons have made us this way that we don't accept anything on face value.. I cannot accept things dumb-folded.. I will keep questioning all my 'whys'.. But at least in due course of time, I will try to learn to not torture myself while questioning.. And I will certainly brood for the things for which there is solution and duck the ones which lead to nowhere..

When I got up today morning, felt the mist clearing-off a little and every passing second made me feel better.. ; "BCCI mulling to sack Dhoni from the captainship", read the headline of the newspaper.. "England is through to final while Aussies will take up Pakistan in the second semifinal for T20 World Cup today" was the content of another page.. Then there're the news on other things, other happenings of the previous day.. "This world is evolving and changing everyday", I thought.. Everything, every object, be it the living one or the non-living, together with the time defined by the moments is a part of the big transformation which we know as the Universe.. We all are an eternal part of this transformation.. That is why we say, "Life goes on".. "Then why did I stop?", I thought.. Certainly it's the time to 're-load' the life.. For, in spite of all the negativities, there are positive things to pick; for every dusk on-setting darkness, we have a dawn the following day bringing in the glorious sunshine; for, beautiful colors scattered in nature still soothe the eyes and fragrances of flowers still smell of sweetness; for, the cool breeze on our face still feels so good and sky still looks so serene after a heavy downpour of rain; for, twinkling stars spread all over the sky in night still exalt the horizons reminding us how vast yet beautiful this world is; for, when the world is still asleep in the wee hours, sweet chirruping of birds tell us the real meaning of tranquility.. For, along with the grieves and tears, sadness and solitude; also coexist within the contours of the same world the smiles and happiness, the innocent giggles and joyous laughter’s and also the sense of tenderness and care.. For, not everyone responds with the cold looks but there are also the people who really care.. If imperfections have not been able to make this world completely imperfect with all the evilness, then why to give up and why not to give a little try, no matter how small, for every iota of positivity added counts.. Why not to think that every adverse condition is a way of nature giving us an opportunity to contribute, to give back something to life..


More than anything else; why to simply exist and why not to live the life in real sense? For, In spite of all the negativities, this world is still a beautiful place to live in and yes.. 'Life is indeed beautiful'....